باد را زمزمه اين بار نوايي دگر است!
لاي موهاي نمورم شب دريايي خواب
قصه ها مي پزد از گندم عشق
امشب از فاصله ي بين دو موج
ماهي نقره اي ياد تو رو مي گيرم
امشب از پشت سراپرده ي ابر
ماه را مي دزدم
مي گذارم به سر سبز سپيدار بلند
شب من بارانيست...........
سفره ام رنگين است
خار در پايم اگر رفته سزاست
همه ي آنچه كه هست
همه ي آنچه كه نيست
همه انگار سزاست
همه انگار به جاست
سر سفره، دم دستم
همه جا مهمانيست
جايت اينجا خاليست
Fasle Akhar 2
hame chiz sabet nemimund chon ruza shab mishod.!!! mruzi miumad ke druz behesh farda migoftim....
to ham mikhasty beri....khodet mikhasty...khaste budi...toye ehsasaty...sakht bud ya migofti sakhte????
yeki dasht darket mikard ya behtar begam to injur fekr mikardi .........sakht bud...baraye man ham...hadeaghal 6 mah bedune to...to mashugh nabudi,janeshin ham nabudi,to chi budi?????.to budi??....
rafty....umadano raftan daste ki bud?to mituni farar koni?..man fahmidam ke yakh zadi ama mitunesty faghat hamaro baykot koni! mitunesty arumtar be khodam begy.....rafty???????
nashod be yadet nabasham,ama hamunja fahmidam ke bazigare senarioyy hastam ke khodam kheili khub nevisandasho mishnasam ama behesh etenaii nemikonam ke be zararam tamum she,ino gereftam
bargashty va man harchi jam shode bud ye bare khali kardam,7 mah nadidamet,hatta yek mah bad az umadanet ham nazashty ke bebinamet...avaz shode budi,man dokhano kenar gozashte budam va elatesh ye chize kheili sade bud......ama to lahze be lahze badtar mishodi.........wait for u to breath again
I kissed u as I could,unghadr ke har 2 be in ehsas beresim ke sir shodim,ke base!!!! ama mage ensan siremuni dare,ya mitune havasesho khafe kone,fasele ba to dvunam mikard......
shaba boghze sangini galumo khafe mikard ke nesfe mizashtamesh.......be to residam...dge nemikhastam forsatamo az dast bedam..ta unjayy ke mishod ba ham pshraft kardim ama motarefam ke hata agar shoru konande man budam ghanunamo zire pa nazashtam......man ghanunmand budam ama kheili vaghtha ham zire pa gozashtane ghanunamo rhaht tar az unke beshe fekresho kard tojih mikardam
in ye chize sade be nazar miresid ama ma har domun mikhastim be ye natije beresim
unghadr to ro busidam ke nafahmidi-nafahmidim- chi shod...marahele filmaye kutahi ke didaneshun ro tajrobe karde budim kheili sari az jeloye cheshmamun migzarundim,hame chiz sade baramun be nazar miresid
engar ke bar chandomemune....to kheili zud be hade owjet residi.man khodamo tatbigh midadam.shayad bekhatere inke naive budi ama man........! un miun donbale ye chiz migashtim ke ke nahayate karemun be un khatm mishod....nime lokht budim?!!!!! arum be shahvatet pasokh dadi hamuntori ke man nafahmidam daram chikar mikonam...daram faghat response karaye to ro anjam midam ya inke manam havasrane dorughgu hastam......ino na man migoftam na to....ma faghat ye chiz migoftim.......I Love You!!!!
to ra gom mikonam har ruzo peida mikonam har shab
bedinsan khabha ra ba to ziba mikonam har shab
taby in kah ra chon kuh sangin mikonad angah
che atashha ke dar in kuh barpa mikonam har shab
tamashayist picho tab in atash
khosha bar man ke picho atash ra tamasha mikonam har shab
mara ye k shab tahamol kon ke ta bavar koni jana
chegune ba jonune khod modara mikonam har shab
tamame sayeha ra mikesham bar rozane mahtab
hozuram ra chashme shahr hasha mikonam har shab
delam faryad mikhahad vali dar gushei tanha
che b azar ba dvar najva mikonam har shab
koja donbale mafhumi baraye eshgh migardi
ke man in vaje ra ta sobh ma'na mikonam har shab
bedune inke ghosli behemun vajeb beshe erza shodim-bad az 3 saat-chizi ke hamishe shoare man bud.
kheili sade hamdgaro tark kardim...eteraf kon ke in dusty faghat bar payeye shahvat nabud..ki be inja keshundesh?????? man ........to......joftemnun?????????
gharar shod zud be zud hamdgaro bebinim,chon kheili arum konande budim,man baraye to va belax!
ama in dafe motmaenam ke taghsire joftemun bud ama sholaro to andakhty.......naive budi....man taghire raftari va raveshie karhamuno tahamol kardam,bahash kenar umadam,ama tazekarie to baes shod ke ye enzali ke hata badesham natunesty tamame sharayete ravani ro raayat koni hamechiz ro beham rikht.......
kheili ahmaghane bud..ahmaghane gozasht........kojast un Love???????..........
az un ruz be bade ke to ba man badiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
az un ruz be bade ke nadidametttttttttttttttttttttttttt
az un ruz be bade ke nakhastimmmmmmmmm
az un ruz be bade ke tahamolam nemikoniiiiiiiii
az un ruz be bade ke harfamam gush nemidiiiiii
ghesey to hanuzam edame dare baraye ine ke fasle akhari
baraye ine ke ketabam tamum besho nist
baraye ine ke hanuz zendeam
baraye ine ke hanuzam bazi karam tu ni donyaye bullshit baghio munde!
k mishe fasle to ro ham tamum konammmmmmmmmmmmm????????????
You held my hand and took me home
just it was enough to show me love
gives me all the way
did u think that sth was going to go there?
dont try to tell me what to do
dont try to tell me what to say
همين جوری
نکته۱:بلاگ بخش نظراتش قاته!!!!!! اگههههههههه نظری دارين می تونين آف بذارين!
نکته ۲: خونه ی اجاره ای!!!!!!!!!
نکته ۳: دير به دير آپديت ميشه!
نکته ۴: فصل آخر .........
فصل آخر ۲
sokute tazei ke barat kharidan to ro yade negahaye sardi mindaze ke mogheye khodahafezy ziad dasht...ghesseye tazeye o tuye fasle akhar khodesh ye ketaber ..negahayy ke jodayy ro mikhast dar hali ke del tu del gir karde bud va nemizasht ke be darde talkh beresid..!tuye hameye in residanhaye pushali ya khiali...(!) be to ye chize ba ahmiat bude,inke dashty ranjo lezat ro ba ham tajrobe mikardi.......mesle inke tuye ye shab zemestuni ye kuhe farsayeshi por az sangrize peida koni.....berehne shio chanan rah beri ruye sanghaye sard ke faryade unha jurabeto pare kone.....har chand sad metri(!) ke miri jayy beshino sanghayy ke gusheii az pat khodeshuno ja dadan dar biari,laye ye dastmal yadegari negah dari ke beduni tuye ye shabe sarde tanhayy cheghadr garmet kardan........
agar akhare in hame ranj-ke joz lezat chizi nadaran- rupushe ye dust bashe ke mishine ruye shunehat va garmaye labaye un bashe ke gunehaye yakh bastato sorkh mikone .......
Ye setareye sefide roshan tuye asemun baraye mano to hamishe az raftano bargashtan az kelashayy mige ke kheili bozorg budan vali faghat 4 nafar tuye una mididam,To-Arian-Duste Arian va khodam......Be Arian hatta salam ham nakardam..shayad tarsidam..shayad be ghavanin maskhareye khodam ke ghablan ham 2 bar mano aghab andakhte bud ehteram gozashtam!
ama Arian,To fargh mikoni,shayad....Maryamo Nika cheshme didane to ro ham nadashtan....
sade az kenare ye chiz gozashtan kheili sakht bud......chon rajo lezat hamishegy baraye man munde..bedune inke be ba'desh fekr konam...faghat mikhastam ayine bashy..hata to ya Arian gharar nabud janeshin beshin.....mikhastam faghat harf bezanam ta khali sham.......ama!
Key ghanunam ro zire pa gozashtam?.kheili sade fahmidam kanun miri..kuchiktari ama balatari.....
yadete?...azat khastam ke be man fohsh engilisi yad bedi va to ba ye puskhand be man javab dadi......az ruye tars ya tamaskhor
badan gofti tars!!!man tarsnak budam.......
3 mah vahshatnaktarin budam va ba'd..........!
shayad Reza nejatam dad,ya faghat dastesho deraz kard...?
ama in ye chize mohem ro az Reza yad gereftam ke inja ham eshgh mesle kheili jahaye dge mesle mavade mokhader morede estefade gharar migire.be manzure farar az vagheiatha......faramush kardane moshkelat..aramesh yaftan.....va mesle hamun mavade mokhader zianbaro virangare......! agar kasi bekhad otad beshe che be mavade mokhader che be eshgh be khodesh marbute...ama tuye zendegy-in ranje jabri!- bayad hamvare beine khubo khubtar entekhabi dashte bashy:na khub na bad .......!
Zendegy kheili vaghta be owje tamakari mirese...ma ruzha,hafteha,mahha,salha ro bedune hesse tazei poshte sar mizarim va yeho ye bahmani varede zendegit mishe va hamechiz ro beham mirize......bedune ozrkhahi ya ta'lil!
har vaght avalin dafei ke ba ham harf zadim ro be yad miaram yade kolahi mioftam ke ruye ye ketab-fekr konam shazde kuchulu bud- bud va ziresh neveshte bud in yek mar ast ke fili dar shekame an jay darad!......to aslan un chizi ke neshun midadi nabudi.kheili behtar az un budi......to Pulse mosbat ro dadi va chenan javabe man ghavi bud ke ma zud be ham residim....
az kenare ham boland nemishodim....?...kam kam har vaght hamdgaro mididim delamun milarzid...ino cheshmamun faryad mizad ama aghlemun ke daricheye ehsasemun ro kur karde bud jeloye zabun ro migereft....va ma saket mishodim
Kasi nist ke ba man bejange ya man ro be khunashun bebare?.kasi nist ke sedaye mano beshnave...man ro be jaye jadidi bebare?.....Man ba Toam!.be donbale surati ashna migardam....
bekhatere inke hamechiz beham rikhtas nemikham hichvaght tanha bemunam.in shabe tariko sardo morde ro ba man begzarun.......man midunam kiam ama to?....!chera hamechiz gij konandast?.......shayad bekhatere sedaye ghalbe mane!!! ama man ba Toam.......shabe sardie....man midunam kiam ama to????....
man ro be khunatun bebar...jahaye hasase badanam ro lams kon ta ham arum besham ham befahmam ke tamame omram ro dashtam ba ye dorughe bozorg ke be khodam gofte budam migzarundam.......begu..........!
ama to kheili behtar az uni budi ke mikhastam...mano bordi be khunat va tuye aghushet ja dadi....patoghi sakhti kenare ye dast moble rahati tuye ye sweet ke khatm mishod be saaty ke ruye divar bud!va dar painesh ye zabt.....ke mikhund!
age ye ruz begam az in hekayat....ke be to kardam adat...delam pshe delet munde tu zendune refaghat....
to dar talash in budi ke mano majbur be ehsas koni!...fekr kardi ke man barmigardam?....man bayad chio begam?...in soal bakhatere ine ke man tasmime jadidamo gereftam...chera bayad ahammiat bedam?...are!to bayad be gush bedi..unghadr ke man betunam jaye khodam ro kenaret mohkam konam..to hanuz asheghami....in tablost..pas hamechiz halle!....
hamechiz az aghushe to aghaz shod!.....va shayad be aghushe man khatm...to hamvare dalayeli baraye tojih tasmimatet dashty ama ...dar eine hameye ina man tasmime jadidam in bud ke agar tuye ghalbam shlkuhi ehsas kardam un ro az dast nadam hata agar baes beshe ke az uni ke aval mikhastam....hamun mission avaliam ... dur sham!........
vaghty man cheshmamo mibandam vagheiat gom mishe va kheili behtar ehsas mikonam-mikonim....ba ham ...hame kari mitunim bokonmim.....hame chiz ro ehsas mikonim.....ba dast footbal bazi mikonim....in ehsas kheili tul mikeshe.tekrari nashe!!! ...vaghty man tanha misham khas fekr mikonam ...be to fekr mikonam ... ama ba ham......hamekari mikonim.......hata footbal ro ham ba dast bazi mikonim bedune inke bekhaim farda baraye un be kasi javab pas bedim.........
age delet por she ya sare man khali mikoni ya sare setaret...ama in koja o an koja.kheili vaghta moghei ke setareto baghal mikardio mibusidish behesh hasudim mishod.....man mikhastam begam...labam milarzid........alizade eshghet bud..dashty masiret ....be shur ke miresidi shuride mishodi..dastaye to hjam milarzid...shahvatet erza mishod bedune inke khodet befahmi....bedune inke ghosli behet vajeb beshe .....to mifahmidi,khodeto mizadi be nafahmidan ke man beram.........bemiram....behet goftam????
zarbolmasali hast ke taghriban tuye hameye farhangaye donya peida mishe....zamani ke cheshm nemibine ghalb ham ehsas nemikone ......ama man ino ghabul nadaram..har che durtar berim be ghalb nazdk tar mishim...hata agar bekushim be faramushi besparim....hata agar tuye ghorbat bashim kuchiktarin khaterate hamdgaro be yad miarimo be yadeshun gerye mikonim....hata obure rahgozarha ham maro be yad hadge mindaze....hata hameye ketabhaye moghadase adyan tuye tanhayy ya ghorbat neveshte shodan..va hame be donbale darke hozure khodayyand ke ma entezare un az khodemun ro nemidunim.nemidunestim va nakhahim danest....!
hamishe ketabkhune mididim hamdgaro..dars tatil shode bud.sobh ta zohr yade to badesh khode to.....
Yadete? .....ye ruz gerefte umadi ketabkhune ......khaste budi.az daste?....gofti:berim park-kashef- ......mikham baghalet konam.... cheshat pore ashk bud.....2 daghighe ham tul nakeshid ke tuye baghale ham budim....khorshid khanum ye khushe shabnam ze gol michid.....unja bud ke be ham goftimo sabet kardim ke asheghtarinim....rudkhune sedaye maro shenido ba khodesh bord.....
ye patogh sakhte budim baraye khodemun....ye sweete 2o metri ke ye seri moble rahati jaygahe hamishegy ma shode bud...hamishe ba negaham eltemaset mikardam ke berim unja...na nemigofti....man az khastam dur shode budam...khoda ro gul mizadam......kheili duset dashtam .....asheghet budam..hata mikhastam begam ke to janeshini..janeshine Yasi..........
Mesle bargi khoshko tanha ruye shakhe mundam injao mitarsam.....tuye change vahshye bad beram az khatero inja bepusam.hameye ruzaye man,ghesseye budane man,tuye ayneye delam,mesle shab siaho sarde.....mesle abra range darde.......are range darde........are man havaye boghz alude abry ro dust daram....unja ke mishe az gerye faryad zad ama kasi nafahme tuyy gerye mikoni ya asemun......hegh heghe azadane.geryeye ba seda...vayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.........cheghadr khube!!!! mesle abra range darde..khakestary-2.30- range darde??????
khoshlim Daf,Geryam Setar,Yobsim Tar,Asabaniatam EG, ahmaghiatam Tonbak.ashegh shodanam Santur.....hamaro to dadi????????......mikhamshun...mikhastamet....mikhamet???
tuye in bhudegiha lahzeharo mishomaram..entezareh har negaham.....? paye to ke mirese akhar be labe marze entegham....az many ke to ro ta inja bordamo negah dashtam....
Yadete?......ye ruz ke tuye baghale ham budim mobl shekast...chghadr khandidimo akharesham dorostesh kardim....vayyyyyyy
ghashng budo por az stress..na baraye mobl...baraye dr shodan.......baraye nagoftan.....
Yadete?..ruzy ke patoghemun ro tamiz mikardim.......chah bast!!!
suskaye mordei ke bu gerefte budano bushun sweet ro bardashte bud......??????????
Ama to dari az man farar mikoni....chon khodam ham nemifahmidam daram gom misham...tuye manjelabam.....
navazeshaye mano to dasht kam kam buye shahvat migereft.....faregh az hadaf ya ghabl az to....faghat be zamani fekr mikardam ke jaye dastam ba labam suratet ro navazesh konam...ya inke ba noke damagham ba noke damaghet ahd bebande.......
Yadete?......goftam:ba to hastam,ba to tanha...gofti:dar havayat del gosastam az hame del bastegiha........!!!
ama tuye in bohboheye shahvat maro ye chiz az chah be chale andakht .....bazgasht........man dardamo mikhordam....ye D3 o ye livan ab ham rush!!!!!!!111to moshkelateto mikeshidi.....ye delesteram rush mikhordi......avala tarse inke valedein befahman.....badesh hayajane inke game badi chie..faregh az hame chiz.......nikotine khunemun bayad bala miraft..........!!
Ta inke nikaye afat umado........to shodi moghabele man.....man ke farari az uno amsalesh....to ham be jomleye ravanshenasa paybando mo'tamed.....tark-tard- shodam ta to beri ba kasi ke man uno....!javab gerefty......,ama sade budiiiiiiiiiiiiii
behet goftam,ama .ashegh shodi....?
harchi khastam nazaram ghargh shi edeaye shenagarit gushamo kar kardo cheshamo az hadaghe dar ovord....ama in man budam ke munde budam bein 2 ta shengar...hata bedune inke shena balad basham......
be yadat dagh bar del mineshanam.ze dide khune be daman mifeshanam....cho ney gar nalam az soze jodayy ,neyestan ra be atash mikeshanam
deltangiaye man ziad shode bud....man mikhtam,to sarzanesham mikardi......bazi mavaghe be tanha mundan....Setar hamdamam shod.........melodihaye sabz......
Emshab dar sar shuri daram....Emshab dar del nuri daram...Baz Emshab dar owje asemnam......bashad razi ba setareganam....Emshab yek sar shogho shuram.....az in alam guyy duram.......vaghean tuye khalvate ba setaram owj migereftam..be asemanha.....gar che D3 ham bi taghsir nabud!!!!
shayad in vaghfe ye Alarm bud baraye inke befahmam Pesar!!! to janeshin nemikhasti.......in shod ke dobare dar be dar donbale ye rahe hal 3 foriaty migashtam.....to ta be key dar ghafase tany??.....khab mididam ama faghat khab....khab gozashtehaye dur....ta residam be hame chizo hich chiz khodam ro gom kardam.....hamechiz bi paye va movaghatie.........
kabusam bud ke azam miporsan:chetor mituni tu cheshmaye man negah koi ta majbur sham bekhatere eshghe zaherit sost sham?
zud mesle naghze nika baraye to peida shod....shayad ham yeki jadid peida kardi???....shayad ham zud pir shodim???????
un baraye man hamishe rahe hal ya kucheye bazgasht be jaye aval bud ama baraye to????????
ye dafe taghir kardim....tasmim gereftim ke ba ham khodkoshi konim.....hargez shab ke ba ham gozarundim ro yadam nemire.... cheghadr ba ham kotakkari kardim....shayad hamun moghe mitunestim natijeye akhare karemun ro hads bezanim ama
Davaye Man ba Sazam
Ta key dar entezar gozari be zariam?
Baz ay ba'd az in hame chashm entezariam
Dshab be yade zolfe to dar pardehaye Saz
Jansuz bud sharhe Siahruzegariam
Bas shekve kardam az dele nasazgare khod
Dshab ke Saz dasht sare sazgariam
Sham'am tamam shodo cheraghe Setareh mord
Chashmi namand shahede shab zende dariam
Sharmam koshad ke bi To nafas mikesham hanuz
Ta zendeam bas ast hamin sharmsariam
Ta hast Taje eshghe Toam bar sar ey ghazal
Shirin bovad be shahre ghazal shahriariam
Shahriar
Welcome To My World
on top of the sky
hey you! learning flight
on top of the sky
tell me
how much are you going to climb before falling down?
hey you! up the tree
do you want to be instead of me?
how do you feel when people don't hear you and you are trying inside me?
or inside yourself?
hey you! have a corona on your head
I heard your falling down,
How bad! Welcome to my World!
hey you! "Steeling light." somebody said.
Stole the sun from your life.
How Bad! Welcome to my World!
you are as poor as possible,as you don't know,
or try not to get that.
and your need is for the thing somebody is whispering on your ears,
whom you've never seen.
Hold your air in lungs,
stop respirating,
and don't let air to scape,
because it's just yours.
How Bad! Welcome to my World!
